Change

These couple of entries are dedicated to my first rsser.. *drumroll* Jason! One of the only people that read this blog... :D These couple of days have been really hectic and he's helped me through a lot. Along with Ron <3

This entry will be about the problem that surrounded me these past days. Change is hard to accept, for me it's either something to be hated or something to be loved. Things change, people change all the time. But sometimes change progresses too quickly, it's so fast it's hard to keep up. Basically my problem was being left in the past while others around me moved forward. After being away for a month or two before coming home I expected things to be the same as when I left but that wasn't the case. The people close to me ended up leaving me in the dust, finding other people, and I was in utter disbelief. I chased the memory of the past, wanting to return to the good times. So much that it drove my brain crazy. Then it hit me.. I was being selfish thinking others felt the same way I did. They moved on, but I did not.

In short terms: Maintaining relationships with people who don't put in the same effort you do is frustrating.

My resolution 

Honestly, I was in denial for a long time, worrying about things I shouldn't have. The thing is I found out, acceptance is key. My friend Ron told me, to look at the past and what you had, then look at the future and see what you've gained. It may take some time to realize it.. but it's a step to acceptance. I've gained a good experience, new friends (although they can't replace old ones), and an awesome time. Hmm.. another thing! I learned to try to stop looking towards the past, throwing away things that may trigger a longing to go back. Taking time away from older friends helped me gain breathing room and time to think.. Yep that's pretty much it for now I think? I feel great at the moment and hope I can continue to move on.